for those of you who remember this entry--

"i love you all. i also love my life. i love rainstorms. i love thunder. i love dandelions. i love grass stains. i love the sounds the river makes. i love jumping up and down in puddles. i love laughing. i love wearing halloween masks. i love the smell of the inside of halloween masks. i love hearing the keys of my typewriter when i type. i love saying hello to people i don't know. i love sweating hard when i work out. i love that feeling i have when i get off a treadmill. i love the smell of used book stores. i love cold wind on hot days.

i just love life."

i would like to continue.

i love being under water. i love the smell of a swimming pool. i love sliding around in a rolly chair. i love playing with my dog. i love sleeping with my cat. i love how my cat can keep my feet warm. i love when my cat chases cockroaches from under my skirt when i sit on the floor. i love the feel of things. i loved reading fresh words in the harry potter chronicles. i love learning. i love garibaldi's pizza. i love mushrooms. i love drinking cold water. i love feeling pretty. i love wearing outfits i don't normally wear. i love sleeping in until 8 on days i can. i love learning. i love hearing new songs that make me dance. i love the feel of sand in my shoes. i love birthday parties. i love the way my hair looks when i curl it. i love coming up with new things i love.

life is amazing. and i love it!!

this is going to be dramastically short. p.s. dramastic is my word. it's dramatic+drastic all in one. you guys should pick it up and use it.  crud.  i have to go back to work, but i just wanted to say hola. and i am learning spanish. i can say a few phrases now. my dog weighs over 50 lbs and she's only 6 months old. i love her. i miss my old internet email pen pal. i need to get back in touch with you.

i'm so sorry but i can't make up excuses as per why i've not be online. i will tell you what i've been up to lately and you can decide for yourself whether or not you forgive me for being absent for a few months.

it all started when summer began-

i promise.


lately i've been taking groups of inner city kids camping. i'm going out rafting and kayaking this weekend. no kids this weekend. and then the next two weekends are also me trips. well, me and friends trips. and then for 9 days after that i'll be out with kids camping and then i'll be back and then i'll have another weekend trip with kids. my summer's been really refreshing. i'm sorry i've not been on here like i said i would. i have 60+ emails i am trying to respond to i just haven't been able to sit down and answer them all yet. but soon, this i promise! soon!


but for now. i'm actually leaving in about 30 mins to go raft the ocoee. wee!

there might be some pics, but i can't gurantee it. but i will try! i do need to update my photos.


much love and hugs to all of you!






take a kid camping sometime. watch their eyes brighten and just stay as wide as they can possibly be. its beautiful and such an awesome learning experience. just don't take more than 5, or you'll go crazy.

dreams about my future. and they all come down to me being the following:: a girl in a deadly situation trying to take pictures of something she knows she shouldn't. in some i'm married. in some i'm young. in some i have (a?) kid(s.) i know i have offspring, i just don't know how many. in some i'm middle aged and as single as mandy moore. but in every single one i'm a girl in this life or death situation trying to take a photograph of something i feel so compelled to expose i would die for it. i've never actually gotten to the point of clicking the shutter closed, i always wake up right before my finger goes all the way down. but i wake up and know i was doing the right thing and would have accomplished something to better the world. i guess i just want to save the world? do dream diaries/journals really work? oh and p.s. i've been working out lately and my thighs hate me for it. my arms want to fall off, but my body feels so clean and refreshed and i'm getting such great sleep. and i have met many new friends!! and p.p.s. tomorrow/today is zaadz day, so get on and be prepared for zIM's!! lets try this again tomorrow. today my sister and i ended up cleaning house and going out shopping for camping gear. and now i'm getting ready for the work. so tomorrow is the day!!

i do, but i feel like i'm being blindfolded and spun around with a tail. but the tail is not a tail at all. it is my path. and i have to choose the place on the map/image of the donkey where i will place my tail/path that i will take without even knowing it. and as exciting as it may be. i feel just like a little kid inside and hope i stick it in the right place so i can get my prize. (sadly enough that would be the end of an ass or the ass of a donkey or the end of the donk. --you choose the phrasing you like best.) but some times i feel like i've been spun around so much and i'm so dizzy, that i'm walking away and trying to stick my map on the actual donkey- and its rearing up in pain to trot off into the sunset. but then i have these dreams that tell me its okay to have been spun around so much to no longer put my path on the documented map. i should document my own way. i want to document my own way. how confusing is that. well, i understand it. (i have no religion. no faith in any deity other than myself. i am my own higher power, as i am the one that directly controls my future. however pre-planned it may be, that is unbeknownst to me, therefore, i take charge and make my own choices, my own future, thus i live by my own "bible," i am my own higher power and my body is my temple.)

i'm totally ready. [this is a test to see if you're paying attention.]

Brittany,
You are right and actually I do mourn for others and do work for peace.
I am glad that you do the same for if you do and I do we may get there.
Rosie

-----Original Message-----
From: Renee
Sent: Friday, April 20, 2007 3:59 PM
To: Rosie P Bingham
Subject: Re: A Day of Mourning

But do you mourn for the students in Midde Eastern countries are
killed? Did you mourn then the Amish children were shot? Do you mourn
for the children in Africa are killed, totured, or raped before they
even reach school age?

My name is Brittany Renee. I am an art student at the University and
while, yes it is sad that Cho was in need of help yet received none
thus carried out his plans, I feel as though Americans need to open
their eyes and realize that this happens everywhere and its just as
sad. Yet, no one seems to notice when an African slaughters an entire
school because he is at war for his country. But it makes it no sadder
for a student who feels as though he has been cast out to do the same
thing on American soil.

You should not mourn for this tragedy alone. Mourn for it, but mourn
for every other child, son, daughter, friend, sister, brother, family
member, and spouse who has been denied the right to live to old age.
And then, when you have finished mourning, join the fight to not stop
it from happening, because I don't know if that is possible, but join
the fight to open the eyes of the rest of the world to these tragedies.

Brittany Renee Carlek.

----- Original Message -----
From: <xxxxxxx@memphis.edu>
Date: Friday, April 20, 2007 12:07 pm
Subject: A Day of Mourning

> I awakened this morning to "A Day of Mourning" for the students,
> faculty, members of the Virginia Tech community and all the family
> members of those who died or were injured physically and
> emotionally by
> the terrible tragedy on Monday. I am in mourning and that is why I
> decided to write.
>
>
>
> It is not often that a Vice President for Student Affairs at a college
> or university will write an open letter. Too often such written words
> are taken as words from the position rather than words from the heart.
> But I just want the students and the University of Memphis
> community to
> know how valuable each of you is and my heart needs to speak. I
> want to
> encourage you to take care of yourself and each other. Notice
> when one
> of us seems to be in trouble in any number of ways. It could be that
> someone is too isolated; include him or her. It could be that someone
> is blue or depressed; provide warmth and a listening ear. If
> there is
> fear, offer them some of your faith and courage. If they are lagging
> too far behind, show them how to catch up. If there is something or
> someone that just does not seem right, tell somebody. This is our
> community and we must take care of it and each other; heal and
> forgive.Care a lot about yourselves and about each other. Be safe.
>
>
>
> Rosie Phillips Bingham
>
> April 20, 2007







just so ya know-- my legal name is Brittany Renee. This is something that has been bothering me since Monday. And I would like to share this with as many of you as possible.

i'll be at the event in nashville. anyone close to the nashvegas should come!!


http://www.invisiblechildren.com/displaceMe/

i love you all. i also love my life. i love rainstorms. i love thunder. i love dandelions. i love grass stains. i love the sounds the river makes. i love jumping up and down in puddles. i love laughing. i love wearing halloween masks. i love the smell of the inside of halloween masks. i love hearing the keys of my typewriter when i type. i love saying hello to people i don't know. i love sweating hard when i work out. i love that feeling i have when i get off a treadmill. i love the smell of used book stores. i love cold wind on hot days.

i just love life.